wardbacks

I'm sitting here writing this.

But now I'm awake and 

I don't listen to anyone when they try to wake me up.

so no one could wake me up or even find me.

Sometimes I wish I slept under my bed 

I'm going to listen to what my parents say more.

And I estimate those five seconds of courage paid off. 

...that raises my self esteem like 4 points.

much sugar and lots of people tell me it's good

So I make a smoothie with too 

through a couple more hours of videos and competitions. 

and I haven't eaten and I'm tired so I sit

And then the middle is filled with tears and lots of shakes

I hope they stop judging me before I die.

and I'm in awe.

and I stare into eyes of fraudulent compliments

Five seconds of courage is all they say

Then I sit there on a mantle of fear.

of feels all acidy and stuck in my throat.

as the capsule I swallowed with no food so it kind 

The grumbling in my stomach hurst almost as bad

I walked upstairs and prayed.

Start. I brushed my teeth and my hair and my eyebrows.